Without Adventure there is no Life, Without God there is no Adventure.

I’m Curt Stowell, and my second passion, which was my first for a long time, is writing.

I enjoy writing fiction, hiding it within factual events, fads, geographical areas, etc.

You must really think, wow, when an art is someone’s first passion there must be something huge to bump it down to second place. And there is. Jesus Christ, without Him we have nothing.

I still write fiction because Jerry and Bob are fiction, or are they?

Life on earth is short and it is what we choose it to be. Not meaning that we decide all of our goals and whether we will be rich or poor, that depends on the endeavors we experience.[expander_maker id=”1″ more=”Read more” less=”Read less”]

But it is our decision to live a life of sadness or joyfulness, no matter what the consequences. I found this out in 2007 under circumstances that was my choice, but at the time I didn’t understand that.

I believe our spirits will live forever and God has given us the opportunity to spend eternity in Heaven with Him or in Hell with the devil and the democrats. Which place have you chosen?

So anyway, who am I?

I was born in Tacoma, Washington, but raised in Washington, Colorado, and Texas. And thanks for the grace of God I’m born-again. 

In a sense, I had to be born-again a couple times (or at least it appears that way) for me to realize that life without Jesus is no life at all (actually, you can be born-again only once).

I won’t call myself a Christian because what’s a Christian now days?  I’m a born-again follower of Jesus Christ.

Texas is my favorite state, partly because of the weather, but mainly the type of people here. Texas is, let me say, a free for all state, not meaning the laws are slack (quite the contrary), but the lifestyle. You have to be here to understand it. Texas freedom breeds freedom.

I don’t like working for people, so I sell things online and do any type of secretarial work. I’ve also taught myself how to make websites, such as www.jerryandgod.com, www.jerryandbob.com, www.tiresandmoresanmarcos.com, etc).

Aside from that, I’ve taught myself how to draw, not meaning my art is fantastic, but it’s good enough to publish. The purpose of the Jerry and Bob books is not to show off my lack of art or to make money, but to spread the good news of Jesus Christ and the books are ALWAYS FREE online.

I’m also the author, creator and CEO of the blog “Jerry and God: The Pictorial, Archaeological and Historical Walk Through the Bible.”[/expander_maker]

Transferable Skills


Writing Skills
I started writing at age 10 and have always written stories and articles throughout my entire life, such as the Jerry and Bob, The Mighty Hunters series.

To better my writing I took:

  • English 101,
  • Creative Writing, and
  • Composition I & II.

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Administrative/Clerical Skills – clerical duties vary according to the administrative personnel they support and the type of business in which they are employed. Skills that may be required are:

  • Typing and Computer,
  • Mathematical and Language,
  • Office Machines, and
  • Organization.

I was the creator and sole proprietor of Dale’s 24 Hour Typing Plus from 1994 to 2004 where I typed, created presentations on Power Point, designed flyers, wrote essays for college students, made greeting cards, etc.  I more-or-less closed my business once I decided to go back to school and obtain a degree in the Paralegal field. It would have been impossible to keep my grades up and run a satisfactory business.

Paralegal Skills

  • Teamwork,
  • Communication,
  • Writing,
  • Research & Investigation,
  • Organization,
  • Multi-Tasking, and
  • Attention to Detail.

Legal Skills

  • Reading,
  • Writing,
  • Typing,
  • Communication,
  • Notary Public (license expired),
  • Understand legal ethics for paralegals and lawyers,
  • Understand court procedures – all courts are basically the same, but have their own style of doing things, as well as their own forms and time tables,
  • College work:
    • Interviewing clients,
    • Investigate,
    • Request for Admissions,
    • Interrogatories,
    • Legal Briefs,
    • Memorandum of Law,
    • Legal Research, and
    • Shepardizing.

Computer Skills

  • E-mail,
  • E-mail attachments, receiving and sending,
  • Paste and Drop,
  • Installing Software,
  • Internet,
  • MS Excel – familiar with it,
  • MS PowerPoint – know it well, but not perfect,
  • MS Word – very good in it,
  • Minor Computer Repair.

Office Machines Familiar With:

  • Copier, black/white and color,
  • Computer
  • Digital Camera
  • Printer: Ink Jets, Desk Jets, and Laser (most frequent with HP and Epsom), and
  • Scanner.

Organizational and Planning process of identifying an organization’s immediate and long-term objectives, and formulating and monitoring specific strategies to achieve them. It also entails staffing and resource allocation, and is one of the most important responsibilities of a management team.

My Obsessive Compulsive Disorder makes me keep track of all elements/matters/situations in my life so I am extremely organized. At times I am more conscientious than normal, depending on the situation, i.e., I analyze the issue, then evaluate the analysis and then analyze the evaluation of the analysis. This can sometimes take time but it pays off in the long run.

Personal Skills

Self-motivated – I am not a follower, nor a leader, I work alone.  Yet, at times I can be a team player, but this is rare.  And no, I do not play well with others.

Even though I choose not to be a leader, I do try and encourage others to never give up on a project. The old sayings, “If there’s a will, there’s a way” and “At first you don’t succeed, try, try again,” I practice and promote.

Oral Communicationsmakes clear and convincing oral presentations to individuals or groups; listens effectively and clarifies information as needed; facilitates an open exchange of ideas and fosters atmosphere of open communication (see tab “Recommendations”).

I have polished this through:

  • Psychology College Courses,
  • Public Speaking, and
  • Member of Toastmasters (was).

Logical Thinking this is a key to making sound decisions and solving complex problems; a process in which one uses reasoning consistently to come to a conclusion. Problems or situations that involve logical thinking call for structure, for relationships between facts, and for chains of reasoning that make sense. This is an innate human ability. From earliest times, human beings have used this power. The first systematic study of logic is credited to the Greek philosopher Aristotle (384-322 B.C.).

I have polished this skill through taking the following college courses:

  • Civil Litigation I & II
  • Negotiation and Conflict Resolution,
  • Interpersonal Conflicts,
  • Critical Thinking, and
  • Psychology courses pertaining to books such as: “In search of the Human Mind,” by Robert J. Sternberg and “Mind and Brain” by Time Life.

Counseling Skills is the act of exchanging opinions and ideas; consultation, advice or guidance, especially as solicited from a knowledgeable person, a plan of action, and private, guarded thoughts or opinions.

I took the following courses to obtain knowledge and proper understanding of this skill:

  • Medical and Physical Aspects of Alcohol and Drug Abuse,
  • Dual Diagnoses and Chemically Dependent Client,
  • Sexual Issues in Alcohol and Drug Abuse Counseling,
  • Ethics for Addiction Professionals,
  • Aids and Chemical Dependency Counseling,
  • CD Counseling for the Family and Significant Others,
  • Spirituality and the 12 Steps in CD Counseling,
  • Relapse Prevention Strategies, and
  • Review for Licensure or Certification Exam.


  • Able to adjust to any changes.
  • Capacity to adapt to new situations and settings and to tolerate change well,
  • Ability to work in a changing environment,
  • Tolerance for ambiguity,
  • Flexibility to adapt to the needs of the moment, and
  • A positive attitude towards change.

Responsible I am extremely responsible and reliable, which is a part of my punctuality and loyalty.

Punctual Always early or on time. My punctuality revolves around the loyalty I give to those I work for or for those who work for me.

Innovative – Always looking for a better, and if possible, simpler way to complete the project at hand.

Quick LearnerI can learn anything that interests me quickly.

Technical/Computer Skills As noted above, I can learn anything quickly if need be. I don’t waste time learning a program or even part of a program if I’m not going to use it at that time, when it’s time to learn it I give it my all and learn, such as the following programs:

  • Affinity Photo – Good
  • Affinity Designer – Good
  • Affinity Publisher – Good
  • Microsoft Word – Good
  • PowerPoint – Good
  • Excel – Good
  • Adobe Photoshop – So-So
  • Paint.net – Good
  • Abby – Good [/expander_maker]

College Assignments

College Assignments

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Paralegalism Today PA101

Date Written: March 2004
Assignment: Brief – Mississippi v. Hogan (civil rights)
Grade: 94%
Comments: Good job, Curtis

Date Written: March 2004
Assignment: Essay – Criminal Law v. Civil Law
Grade: 100%
Comments: Curtis, I think this is some of your best work to date. You’ve done a very, very thorough job discussing legal theory and have cited excellent sources. Your use of the chart is also effective. Keep this paper on file as a writing sample in your career portfolio. GREAT JOB!

Contract Law PA130

Date Written: August 2004
Assignment: Brief – Hunter v. Spelling (breach of contract)
Grade: 100%
Comments: A+ – very good job, thorough…nice work.

Date Written: August 2004
Assignment: Brief – Connecticut v. Little (contract)
Grade: 100%
Comments: Very good job, very thorough…nice work, where did you get the information?

Civil Litigation I PA110

Date Written: March 2004
Assignment: Mississippi University For Women Et Al. v. Hogan
Grade: 94%
Comments: Good job, Curtis.

Date Written: May 2004
Assignment: Mock Law Suit on Automobile Accident
Grade: 99%
Comments: Grade 99 only because no one is perfect. Seriously Curtis, fantastic, I loved the supporting documentation it shows a seriousness that insurance companies will notice. Great job. Good Luck on the final. Ed.

Date Written: May 2004
Assignment: Mediation and Arbitration
Grade: 100%
Comments: Truly excellent work, Curtis. Very thorough and well researched and well written. The whole assignment is done very professionally and scholarly. Who could ask for anything more.

Date Written: June 2004
Assignment: Explain Motions
Grade: 96%
Comments: Curtis, Excellent – you covered all of the topics necessary to the motion work. But would summary judgment enter if the plaintiff left out a key piece of the contract. That is the central issue. Very good.

Date Written: June 2004
Assignment: Evidence
Grade: 87%
Comments: None

Civil Litigation II PA112

Date Written: January 2005
Assignment: Preparation for Trial
Grade: 98%
Comments: Excellent work, Curtis.

Date Written: February 2005
Assignment: Final Exam Essays
Grade: 100 A+
Comments: Truly excellent work, Curtis. Very thorough and well researched and well written. The whole assignment is done very professionally and scholarly. Who could ask for anything more.

Legal Ethics PA253

Date Written: March 2005
Assignment: Brief – Hickman v. Taylor (work product case)
Grade: 95%
Comments: Curtis, good job. Your issue is “cute” and I take it as very relevant and witty. However, a lawyer may not BE pleased with such wit. I would state the issue this way: Were the statements obtained from the survivors before litigation began privileged attorney work-product?

Date Written: March 2005
Assignment: Brief – In The Matter of Hein (lawyer disbarred for drunkenness)
Grade: 88%
Comments: Curtis: Thanks for the paper. Good job! Here are my comments. 1. I would present the issue this way: Is a lawyer’s admitted alcoholism a sufficient, mitigating circumstance to reduce a sanction of disbarment? (Holding: No.). Issue must be fact specific and include the legal terms as well. 2. The Reasoning is a summary of the Court’s decision – rule of law and their application of facts. For example: REASONING: You should start with the rule or statute the Court used for its reasoning, then you can go on. The Court chose not to allow alcoholism as a defense against disbarment where a lawyer’s conduct warrants disbarment. Of the instances of misconduct committed by Hein, the Court found it was the misappropriation of his clients’ mortgage funds that warranted disbarment instead of a suspension. The Court first acknowledged that other extreme circumstances, such as financial hardship, can cause lawyers to engage in misappropriation of client funds, but the result is still disbarment, regardless of the circumstances that contributed to the misbehavior. The Court then acknowledged that alcoholism is not a defect in character, citing a New Jersey statute that spoke to that effect, but reiterated that in lawyer discipline cases, the primary goal is the protection of the public…continue with the arguments and policy arguments of the Court; end with a conclusion sentence.

Date Written: April 2005
Assignment: Special Ethical Issues in Advocacy
Grade: 100%
Comments: Great Job, Curtis!

Date Written: April 2005
Assignment: Brief – Mays v. Neal (lawyer not UPL)
Grade: 90%
Comments: Curtis: Good job! Here are my comments: 1. I would formulate the issue shorter. For example: Did Mays fail to adequately communicate with his client by solely relying upon his non-lawyer staff to communicate with his client? 2. Holding: Yes. 3. Reasoning section still could be better – Rule first, Application of facts second.

Date Written: April 2005
Assignment: Final Exam: Special Ethical Issues in Advocacy
Grade: 100%
Comment: Great job, Curtisis!

Legal Research PA201

Date Written: August 2004
Assignment: IRAC Format
Grade: 80%
Comments: CURTIS, Good job with the explanation of the contract. You spelled everything out in a clear and concise manner. It was obvious you understood the elements of the contract and the ramifications of breaking a contract. Good job….B

Date Written: May 2005
Assignment: Letter to Client
Grade: 85%
Comments: Good letter to client. Remember anytime cases and/or statutes are included in your papers you must give the correct cites. Example: Price Waterhouse v. Hopkins, 490 U.S. 288 (1989). Where is Title VII of the Civil Rights Act of 1964 codified? Even though Price Waterhouse, id. Case was remanded, didn’t the court give a ruling with regard to standards that may constitute discrimination? I liked the honesty in your letter. One of the worst things that some attorneys do is promise results that will never occur.

Date Written: June 2005
Assignment: Memo About Wrongful Life
Grade: 90%
Comments: Excellent research of materials concerning wrongful life, but you never explained what possible defenses to a wrongful life claim exist. Good effort, but needs more analysis based upon the findings in your research.

Date Written: June 2005
Assignment: Brief – Price Waterhouse v. Hopkins (discrimination)
Grade: 100%
Comments: Excellent Brief of Price Waterhouse Case. One of the best jobs in the class. Proper format and outstanding summary of the case. Keep up the good work.

Date Written: June 2005
Assignment: Mid-Term Exam Essays – Legal Citation Form – Memo to supervising attorney, with Secondary and Primary Authorities
Grade: 90%
Comments: Excellent research of materials concerning wrongful life, but you never explained what possible defenses to a wrongful life claim exist. Good effort, but needs more analysis based upon the findings in your research.

Date Written: July 2005
Assignment: Thesis and Outline for Memorandum
Grade: 100%
Comments: Excellent thesis and outline. You have placed a lot of thought and research into this assignment and should be commended for your effort. With the work you have done on this thus far, all you have to do is place the information into a memorandum and your Final Project is finished. Keep up the good work!

Date Written: July 2005
Assignment: Distinguish between primary and secondary authorities and how to shepardize
Grade: 97%
Comments: Excellent essays with great use of examples to support your positions. A little overkill on “Stare Decisis,” actually the court in Brown v. Board of Education was not applying the theory of Stare Decisis when they overruled Plessy v. Ferguson. However, your effort must be commended. Very good work on the Shepard’s question, but you did not mention any of the Shepard’s Signals. Overall, you have done a wonderful job in this class throughout the term. I have enjoyed your participation in the class and your wit. Keep up the good work and you will be a success as you go forward with your legal career.

Date Written: August 2005
Assignment: Final Project: Drafting Legal Documents – Internal Memorandum
Grade: 98%
Comments: Excellent research and memorandum, citing both positive and negative aspects of the case situation. Good memorandum format, but the references at the beginning of your memo were unnecessary and made the memo a bit awkward. Overall, a very interesting and informative memorandum with good research of law to support your position and great job in discussing various aspects of the issues presented. I commend you for the fine effort and am confident that you will succeed as you pursue your future legal career.

Critical Thinking HU345

Date Written: May 2005
Assignment: Introduction: From Customs to Codes: Criminal
Grade: 100%
Comments: You did a good job! Indeed, we study history to prevent repeating the bad parts.

Date Written: May 2005
Assignment: Criminal Justice in Revolutionary Times (1718-1797),Criminal Justice in the New Nation (1777-1834) – What types of problems were evident in the early prisons in American?
Do some of those problems still exist in the correctional system today?
Grade: 100%
Comments: SO…a little tough on crime? 😉 Today’s prison philosophy does not rely on rehabilitation, but on warehousing prisoners. Over 60% of the nation’s prison population are incarcerated for non-violent offenses! Perhaps our society needs to examine this trend and look for alternatives…it’s costing us billions and recividism rates remain high. Another issue is the N.I.M.B.Y. (Not in my back yard) attitude. Folks want bigger and better prisons, but they do not want to pay for them nor build them where they would best serve the community. Such a paradox!

Date Written: June 2005
Assignment: Criminal Justice in Antebellum America (1817-1857), Criminal Justice in the Civil War Era (1856-1876), Where would you choose to live after the Civil War ended in 1865?
Grade: 100
Comments: You had too much fun with this one 😉 Very good and way more than you needed to do, so I will reward the efforts.

Date Written: June 2005
Assignment: English Criminal Justice Antecedents (570-1725), Criminal Justice in Early America (1597-1740) – Trial by Ordeal
Grade: 75%
Comments: The first submission, albeit for it’s omission, was excellent. The second submission was good. These assignments aren’t meant to tax the student. Just tell me in your own words the answer to the question. It’s an insightful response I’m searching for.

Date Written: July 2005
Assignment: Criminal Justice in the New Millennium (2000-2002) – (What influence does the U.S. Constitution have with the Criminal Justice System?)
Grade: 95%
Comments: You could have probably trimmed this down considerably, but it looked like you had a good time with it. Probable cause, not probably… I think you have a good understanding of the effects.

Date Written: August 2005
Assignment: Reflections Paper – The Fallacy of Irrelevance
Grade: A
Comments: Reflection Paper Criteria: Does your reflection paper… (1) Focus on a single topic? Yes (2) Discuss subject matter that is on-topic? Yes (3) Discuss this topic clearly? Yes (4) Discuss the topic completely? Yes (5) Discuss this topic accurately? Yes (6) Discuss the heart of topic? Yes (7) Demonstrate clear comprehension of the selected topic? Yes (8) Avoid unexplained jargon? Yes (9) Use concise, clear language? Yes (10) Have an error free presentation? Yes Good job.

Date Written: September 2005
Assignment: Final Project – Essay: Freedom of Speech
Grade: A
Comments: None

Criminal Justice CJ105-01

Assignment: Mid-Term Exam Essays
Grade: 100
Comments: Absolutely thorough and complete! I enjoyed your take on the Pope.

Developmental Psychology – SS350

Date Written: July 2006
Assignment: Theories and Human Development
Grade: A
Comments: Curtis, you did an outstanding job on this project. It is obvious that you enjoy psychology and the theories associated with various theorists. You did extensive research and showed an incredible depth of knowledge in each developmental area. You cited your references very well throughout the body of your work as well as at the end. The only suggestion I would make to you for future projects is to add some original examples to your work to solidify your writing. Your research is beyond reproach. Excellent job.

Date Written: August 2006
Assignment: Intelligence and Language Development
Grade: A
Comments: Curtis, your Unit 6 project is outstanding! You have expressed your ideas in a clear and concise manner that is actually quite interesting as well as informative. You have researched this topic thoroughly, which is evident by the numerous sources that you used to write your paper. You cited everything perfectly as well. I really like the way you separated all of the categories for this paper. You have shown each stage of development and walked through the various activities that can promote development. Excellent work!

Date Written: August 2006
Assignment: Cognitive Development
Grade: A
Comments: Curtis, you did an outstanding job on this project. All of the questions are answered correctly, with thought, clarity, and substance. You cited references from your text throughout the paper and it added to the overall value of your work. I know that it did not ask for this in the questions, but I would be curious to know how you feel about the various points of view being presented. You may want to include your personal perspective, based on the information that you collected, in future projects. Great job!

Date Written: September 2006
Assignment: Sex Differences, Aggression, Altruism, and Moral Development
Grade: A
Comments: Curtis, you did a very nice job of answering all of the questions. The material required a lot of thought and you showed great insights. You used numerous sources to support your points, which is excellent. I liked your comparison of the various theorists. It shows that you pulled some of their theories together and integrated them into one explanation. Did you remember that Freud is one of my heros? I completely agree with your viewpoint about Freud being first and everyone else agreeing or rejecting his theories! Great job.

Date Written: September 2006
Assignment: Final Project – Family, Society and the Media
Grade: 100%
Comments: Curtis, you have done an outstanding job on the final project. You have written an incredible paper with amazing insights. Your work is very thorough and your examples are terrific. You cited your references throughout the paper and at the end, which is terrific! You have outlined the major theorists in a very thorough manner. It took the entire course to be able to synthesize the material in the manner that you were able to accomplish in this paper. Your work is terrific and it seems as though you have mastered the developmental concepts that were presented. I am very impressed with all of your efforts this term. You are a terrific student and I wish you the best of luck!

Criminal Procedure CJ227

Date Written: June 2005
Assignment: Juries and Trial Procedures
Grade: 99.5%
Comments: Curtis: Fantastic job, but you left me wondering what the defense was all about. What was the defense? You received a 99.5% on this paper, losing only one half point for grammar. I did give you 5 points on APA style even though you missed the reference page because you so cleverly added the information on the front page. Great job. Here are your points: Content: (Possible points for each is 10) Each point in question is answered fully 10 Topic is discussed clearly: 10 Topic is discussed accurately: 10 Demonstrates understanding of topic: 10 Thoughtful analysis of materials: 10 Quality of Writing: (Possible points for each is 10) Uses concise, active, clear language: 10 Correctly organized and logical structure: 10 Each paragraph begins with topic sentence conveying main idea with remaining paragraph relating to first topic sentence: 10 Proper grammar: 9.5 Completeness: (Possible points are 5) 5 Formatting, Technical accuracy and APA Style: 5(Possible points are 5). [/expander_maker]




Associates Degree – Paralegal Studies
January 2004 to May 2006, GPA 3.54

[expander_maker id=”1″ more=”Read more” less=”Read less”]DRUG/ALCOHOL CERTIFICATES

Medical and Physical Aspects of Alcohol and Drug Abuse

Duel Diagnosis and the Chemically Dependent Client

Sexual Issues in Alcohol and Drug Abuse Counseling

Ethics for Addiction Professionals

Review for Licensure or Certification Exam

Aids and Chemical Dependency Counseling

CD Counseling for the Family and Significant Others

Spirituality and the 12 Steps in CD Counseling

Relapse Prevention Strategies

G.E.D. – 5-20-82

Award of Merit Certificate
On The Boulevard

Anger Management Certificate

Notary Public License
August 22, 2003 to August 22, 2007

Recommendation Letters





A Gift from God

Jerry: A Gracious Gift From God
January 23, 2008

Hello. I’m Curt Stowell. Everyone in their lifetime will have at least one experience which they’ll never forget.

It doesn’t matter whether it’s good or bad, small or large – it’ll be great enough to be imprinted on the person’s mind forever. [expander_maker id=”1″ more=”Read more” less=”Read less”]

In 1978, at the age of 16, I had experienced an event that is somewhat like the type I mentioned above because it certainly changed my life.

I can’t say I’ll never forget it because I don’t remember it happening. The event was so grand, so traumatic, that my mind was forced to step back and rewind my memory bank to the day of my birth. Don’t become confused.

My memory wasn’t exactly destroyed, but, in a sense, stolen. It was at this time Jerry came into existence, and with a virgin memory, yet it was used. I wasn’t dead or kidnapped just sort of put on hold.

I’m not the creator or proprietor of Jerry, nor is he a figment of my imagination or a character in a fiction book. Jerry “was” a real, living, breathing person, and the creator of himself.

For a very, very long time, aside from my mother, he was the only friend I had. Yet, I didn’t know he existed until I no longer needed him.

On August 2nd of the year of Jerry, two friends and I went cruising very late in the evening. It’s unknown whether it was due to the alcohol, the marijuana, the drugs, or just an idiot’s talent that we took the corner off 23rd Street onto Shaw Road a bit too fast.

Fast enough that the little car began to roll and during the process I was catapulted from the back seat out the back window head first.

I guess you could say I was the winner concerning who obtained the most gifts out of the ordeal. My two friends only received minor bruises and scratches while I was awarded a multitude of gifts.

The most outstanding of them were a fractured skull, equipped with blood clots (subdural hematoma), a hole in my head which was later enlarged in surgery to permit necessary irrigation and removal of the blood clots.

In a later surgery this was covered with a fiberglass plate. I also was left with double vision (uncorrectable even with lenses), epilepsy, left-side ataxia, a serious pulmonary problem, a memory bank that was wiped clean, and when I came out of the coma 30 days later my intelligence was below that of a four-year old.

When you add the last two elements together – amnesia and a four-year-olds intellect – you have an instant retard, i.e., “Jerry.”

The awards mentioned above may not sound like a whole lot of fun and they weren’t, but they were all necessary.

Five years after the award ceremony Jerry was given the greatest gift anyone could ask for: He was introduced to God Himself.

As noted above, I was in a coma for 30 days. Imagine how a mother would feel. I was kept alive by machines and the neurosurgeons gave me less than a 10% chance of survival.

To add to that it was assumed that if I miraculously came out of the coma I would never see the age of 21; that I would die the vegetable I had become.

I am not speaking derogatorily of the neurosurgeons that spent hours and worked hard to save me, but those in that type of profession seem to me not to have much of a personality or sympathy. They are basically walking, breathing textbooks.

Yet, they obviously do have a heart and even compassion because they didn’t give up trying to save me and by using a new drug were able to keep me alive. But they had little expectation that my life would be in any way close to “normal.”

My situation was nothing new to them; they had seen it before and knew very well the likely end result. Nevertheless, God had a different plan in mind.

My mother was at the hospital all day every day except to go home to bathe. A few days after the accident, the hospital chaplain asked her if she wanted him to pray for me.

She was a Christian Scientist at the time and affirmations of the love of God and denial of any evil was more the way to handle the situation than prayer.

She figured it couldn’t hurt and responded to the pastor’s question with, “Yes, if you have any connections go ahead.” The pastor prayed that God would let me live, make me whole and for Him to give a sign that the prayer was answered.

The next time my mother went into the ICU room she said I sat straight up and opened my eyes then laid back down. My mother recognized that as the sign the chaplain had prayed for and knew the prayer had been answered.

Soon I was out of ICU and after that I began coming out of the coma, but was unable to sit up on my own and when my eyes were open they just rolled around (maybe checking out that hole in my head).

I was fed through a tube and tied down in my bed except to be sat upright and tied into a wheelchair for bits of time in order to prevent pneumonia.

After another three and a half weeks I was sent to Good Samaritan Hospital in Puyallup to begin rehabilitation, with little expectation of much progress.

My mother no longer accepts the belief system of the Christian Science religion and regards it as a cult, having become a born again Christian.

Aside from my skull, none of my bones were broken. Due to the brain injury however, many of my body functions were affected. I was unable to do anything for myself.

I had to learn everything all over again – how to walk, talk (first I had to learn how to even make a sound), feed myself (even how to swallow), clean myself, read – basically everything and I had no backup to refer to.

However, God had made a promise and He doesn’t break them. Therefore, there is no need to go on with that story. I continued to get better.

I didn’t really believe in God at that time. As I – well, as Jerry continued to get better, people would tell me that I should thank God for letting me live. No, that was not how Jerry and I saw it.

God did not let me live; He was making me live because He was a horrible, cruel God, if He even existed. And if He didn’t exist, He was a liar for making people believe that He does.

The above thoughts would only come from a confused and distorted mind. I was not a happy person. Being retarded is far from simple or fun, especially since I knew that if Jerry could escape from my own mind I would no longer be retarded.

That certainly was not going to happen anytime soon. At the age of 17, Jerry tried to commit suicide because he could not cope, partly with the way he was, but mostly with the cruelty the world consistently fed him.

He obviously failed at that, and if he couldn’t perform a simple task such as suicide he certainly wasn’t an escape artist.

Around the age of 18 or so, I received a small insurance settlement and all of a sudden Jerry was not my only friend. I had wall-to-wall “friends,” but I didn’t know if they were new or old “friends.”

Nor did I know that they enjoyed my money not me. Yet, none of this mattered for two reasons: (1) There was nothing Jerry wanted more than a friend, and (2) old or new, real, or false did not enter into the mind at that time due to Jerry’s retardation and amnesia may have played a part in it, too.

Amnesia is a very strange land because knowledge is life and without knowledge you would figure there would be no life.

Yet, there can be life without knowledge. No one can truly know amnesia without experiencing it. If you have it you can’t explain it to anyone. You can’t explain it to yourself; you just know you have it.


I don’t remember what I forgot, but I remember that I forgot what I should remember.

Let’s use a drunken blackout as an analogy, I’m sure many can relate to that. You don’t know what happened during the blackout so you can’t tell anyone or yourself, but you know you were drunk.

The best way I can define amnesia is: I don’t remember what I forgot, but I remember that I forgot what I should remember.

The two friends that had been in the accident with me had done their best to evade me or they would play cruel tricks on me because they thought it was funny and they didn’t like Jerry.

Yet, when the money came, they were there with their hands out. Of course, at that time I didn’t know they had played cruel tricks on me and I was happy to see them and give them money.

I was quickly introduced to the world of drugs, primarily everyone’s favorite sport: cocaine.

I was still Jerry, but instead of being a stupid, annoying retard that could barely walk or talk, I was a stupid, annoying retard that could barely walk or talk that had money.

Where was mom? Jerry was a terror to her. He threatened to burn her house down if she didn’t give him all the money. All she could do was give him the money and pray, and pray she did.

The money quickly ran out, a great amount of it going into my so-called friends’ veins, as well as my own. Once the money left so did the friends.

Could things get worse?

A few friends stuck around, but the money was gone so the cocaine was too. Jerry’s friends really liked the drugs so he wanted to please them and himself.

In 1983, at the age of 21, I was charged and convicted of four counts of 2nd Degree Robbery. I knew right from wrong, but as a child; not as an adult. Repercussions? Punishment? You mean I have to go to bed early? No dessert?

The judge had pity on Jerry and I was sentenced to one year at Teen Challenge in Seattle, Washington. I really didn’t care for religion, especially if they were going to talk about God, but I figured I could deal with it for a year. The others there made fun of Jerry or stared and made faces or made snide remarks.

The staff frequently scolded me because I didn’t hold my silverware correctly, I was loud, I refused to make up false words as if speaking in tongues (that’s what they thought you did to speak in tongues), etc. After a few days I left and a few weeks after that I turned myself in and stood before the same judge.

The judge was going to let me go back to Teen Challenge and give it another try, but I was not willing. My lawyer wanted the judge to let me go to a different program and I think he was going to allow it, but the prosecutor was against the idea.

Therefore, the judge gave me the choice of going back to Teen Challenge or ten years in prison. Jerry and I didn’t know anything about prison, but we knew we couldn’t deal with Teen Challenge, so we accepted the ten years.

It wasn’t God’s decision that I commit robbery or use drugs, Jerry and I did that all by ourselves. God will not force you or even help you sin, nor even tempt you to do so (James 1:13).

God is a spirit (Jn 4:24) and is not of this world. It is the work of the flesh (Gal 5:19-21), which is the world, that tempts you to do evil, wicked acts.

The Spirit of God is only good and loving (Gal 5:22-23), while it is the devil who is here to destroy you (1 Pet 5:8 and Jn 8:44).

In 1983, I found out that Jesus is real, as real as the sun rises. In 1986, I was paroled and even though I believed and maybe even loved Jesus and wanted to be like Him, I wasn’t as sincere as I had thought.

Jerry was getting much better, and prison did nothing but anger him. Once released, God was pushed to the back of the line. I had decided to have fun and hurt anyone I chose.

By placing my lustful desires before God I was forcing a separation (Isa 59:1-2) and accepted the ways of the world and became servant to the devil (1 Jn 3:8-9).

In 1987, ten months after my release, I returned to prison under the convictions of four counts of 1st Degree Robbery, five counts of Assault, and two counts of Auto Theft.

About two years before my release on January 22, 1992, I had spent seven months in the “hole” for disciplinary purposes. I spent a lot of time with God and on my release, I, without Jerry’s opinion, immediately moved to San Marcos, Texas, because I knew if I stayed in Washington, I would find myself within the revolving prison doors once again.

* * *

It’s said that once we’re fully developed, bone doesn’t grow, that it can only mend itself.

For example, if an arm is broken, the broken pieces can be fastened together and they’ll grow back together. Yet, if a finger is cut off, a new finger won’t sprout out of the stub. It’s also said that epilepsy doesn’t go away.

At the age of 24, my skull bone grew back, shattering the plate, so that I no longer have a plate in my head. In 2006, I ceased having seizures and taking epileptic medicine.

* * *

I’m sure you figured out I didn’t graduate from high school – Jerry couldn’t spell “graduate,” let alone do it.

I do have my G.E.D., and I’m somewhat educated in psychology, computers, the Internet, Microsoft Word, and a multitude of clerical/secretarial tasks.

I can do small plumbing projects, a bit of carpentry, and I have a driver’s license. I type about 60-70 words per minute and from 1993 to 2004 ran a typing business which I created and was the sole proprietor of.

I closed my business only to return to college where I obtained an Associate’s Degree in Paralegal Studies, with a GPA of 3.54.

At this writing, I’m 46 years old and even though some of the damage done by the accident is still with me if you met me you’d have no idea that I’d been in any accident, let alone one that gave Jerry life 30 years ago.

I’m no longer certain that my amnesia is full or if it’s partial because sometimes I remember things from my past prior to the accident.

Yet, I don’t know if I’m remembering the incident or if someone told it to me when I was Jerry.

One thing I do know for certain but can’t explain the feelings, is that I don’t know or remember who I was before the accident.

I’m told that I’m just like I was, but this doesn’t tell me anything. This would be like giving me a hamburger for the first time and telling me this is how they always taste.

If I had never had a hamburger before it tells me nothing about prior hamburgers. It feels as though there’s a hole in my soul. Yet, it actually doesn’t matter because I didn’t know God then, so I don’t want to be that guy anyway.

I tell you of my accomplishments not to boast of myself or for myself, but to boast of how powerful, loving and generous God is. How many retards do you know who have an Associate’s Degree? Or who can type? Drive a car? And, yes, I can spell “graduate.”

All the things I can do and will do in the future are done and will be done only through the grace of God (Eph 2:8-9) and (Phil 4:13). There’s nothing, absolutely nothing that God can’t do (Luke 1:37). and there’s nothing He won’t do for those who love Him (1 Jn 3:22, 1 Jn 5:14-15, Mk 11:22-26).

God is not easy to understand because He is God, which is beyond our understanding (Isa 55:9). We’re not to know everything of God (Acts 1:7), but the Bible explains Him quite well.

And of course, if you’ll talk to Him He does answer questions (James 1:5). God isn’t a fantastic, mysterious force that floats around in the atmosphere or outer space.

Yet, He is, without a doubt, fantastic and mysterious, but He’s a spirit (Jn 4:24) and there’s no one like Him (Isa 44:6).

We’re also spirits and we are also people so it’s quite obvious that He too is a person. He’s just like you (Gen 1:26-27), and He has feelings too (Ex 34:14).

Of course, we’re not exactly like Him because He is the creator of all things (Isa 45:18, Ps 19:1, 24:1, 33:9).

As humans sometimes it is easier to understand a subject if we have a picture or idea or concept to compare it to.

Let’s use the children’s story Pinocchio for an example where Gepetto made Pinocchio.

Gepetto wanted a son so he sat in his workshop and carved all the body parts out of wood and then put them together. He gave Pinocchio everything he needed to be his son.

He wasn’t created to be a liar. Pinocchio did that on his own.

Now let’s look at God sitting at His workshop as He creates the world and everything in it, which includes you.

He gave you all you need to be His child and all that He asks of you is that you be honest and love Him as He loves you. He didn’t make mankind to be sinners. We did that. Actually, Adam started us off (Gen 3:6). Yet even though we sin God doesn’t walk away from us (Deut 4:31, Isa 41:10, Heb 13:5).

God is a loving, patient God, and he doesn’t want to destroy anyone (2 Pet 3:9), but He will in the end.

Those who ignore Him and go Satan’s way will go to hell rather than heaven (Matt 7:21-23, Heb 10:26-27, 1 Cor 5:9-10, Rev 21:8, 2 Pet 2:4-9).

If we abide in His ways and wait on Him we will be grandly rewarded (Isa 40:31, Ps 27:14, 1 Cor 2:9, Rom 8:28).

I’m not saying it’s easy but it’s worth it.

My release from prison in 1992 didn’t turn me into a Holy Roller or a righteous person. I can’t say I’ve never had any more problems with the law, but I can say that I work daily to please God.

God wishes us to study his Word, the Bible, to know Him and to be like Jesus. As I said, it’s not easy, but if you ask God for His help He freely gives it.

I can honestly say that I’m a new creature (2 Cor 5:17) and Jesus lives in me. It’s a real good feeling, but that doesn’t mean that I’ll not sin (Rom 3:23), but I won’t sin just for the purpose of sinning.

I don’t fear the devil because God will protect me as long as I abide by His commandments (Deut 31:8).

I’d rather be starving to death, living on skid row, be in prison, or even be Jerry again if that is what it took to be with God. But it’s not.

All you need to do is believe in Jesus (Jn 3:16) and have faith (Matt 21:21, Heb 11:1 and Heb 11:6) and then He will show you and tell you wondrous things in due time (1 Cor 2:9).

In other words, all you have to do is believe that Jesus was born of a virgin (Matt 1:18; Lk 1:27-28, 31), that He died for us (Jn 4:14; Isa 53:56), and was resurrected for us (1 Cor 15:20-22; Rev 1:18).

Believe me, He didn’t do any of this for kicks and grins or because He was bored, He did it for US, to give us life.

If you have everything except God you have nothing. If you have only God you have it all.

I previously stated that God isn’t easy to understand, and He isn’t, but He’s not that hard to become friends with.

God doesn’t want slaves, robots, or even servants. If that is what He wanted He could have created them. He wants true friends, a family.

The way to become God’s friend is the same way you become with the ones you have on earth: It takes time, energy, and trust.

Adam and Eve had that relationship with God before they sinned. When they sinned He was hurt, but He still found friends, to name a few:

And the Scripture was fulfilled which saith, Abraham believed God and it was imputed unto him for righteousness: and he was called the friend of God (James 2:23).

I’m sure you sometimes disagree and even argue with your friends. God should not be treated differently. God saw Moses as a friend.

It didn’t matter that Moses was a murderer (Ex 2:12) because God looks at the heart (1 Sam 18:7).

“And the Lord spake unto Moses face to face, as a man speaketh unto his friend as a man speaketh unto his friend…

And Moses said unto the Lord, See, you sayest unto me, Bring up this people: and thou hast not let me know whom thou wilt send with me. Yet thou hast said, I know thee by name, and thou hast also found grace in my sight. Now therefore, I pray thee, that I may find grace in thy sight: and consider that this nation is thy people.

And he said, My presence shall go with thee, and I will give thee rest.

And he said unto him, If thy presence go not with me, carry us not up hence. For wherein shall it be known here that I and thy people have found grace in thy sight? Is it not in that thou goest with us? So shall we be separated, I and thy people, from all the people that are upon the face of the earth.

And the LORD said unto Moses, I will do this thing that you have spoken: for thou have found grace in my sight, and I know thee by name.

And he said, I beseech thee, shew me thy glory.

And he said, I will make all my goodness pass before thee, and I will proclaim the name of the Lord before thee; and will be gracious to whom I will be gracious, and will shew mercy on whom I will shew mercy” (Ex 33:11-19).

Are we not the same way? We are; but God being God can be so much more gracious and compassionate, as well as condemning.

In Ps 25:14, King David – a man who was after God’s heart (Acts 13:22) and probably the greatest king who ever lived wrote,

“The secret of the Lord is with them that fear Him; And He will shew them His covenant” (Ps 25:14).

King David’s son, King Solomon, the wealthiest and most intelligent person who ever lived, as well as the author of Proverbs and Ecclesiastes said,

“For the froward is abomination to the Lord; but His secret is with the righteous. The curse of the Lord is on the house of the wicked, but He blesseth the habitation of the just” (Prov 3:32-33). Also, see (Rom 5:10, James 4:8 and Jn 15:15).

Jesus said,

“Behold, I stand at the door and knock: If anyone hear my voice and open the door, I will come in to him and sup with him, and he with me” (Rev. 3:20).

It can’t be doubted that God wants us to love Him and be His friend for He loves us and is our friend.

He also wants to give us greater things than we have now, but we are unable to even begin to imagine what they may be because He didn’t create us to understand Heaven fully:

But as it is written, Eye has not seen, nor ear heard, neither have entered into the heart of man the things which God hath prepared for them that love Him” (1 Cor. 2:9).

Earlier I had said that when I was released from prison in 1992 I wasn’t a Holy Roller, and I wasn’t, and I’m still not, according to my definition of a Holy Roller (I place Holy Rollers in the same category as a Used Car Salesmen or a politician).

I have no faith in any particular religion, I have a personal relationship with Jesus Christ, I’m a Rebel for Jesus.

To understand the mysteries of God better, I recommend you pray daily for guidance and knowledge.

I also recommend that you read the book The Pilgrims Progress by John Bunyan.

This book, if you will read it with the Lord, will lead you directly to Jesus Christ through the Holy Ghost.

Correspondence Bible studies are a great help. Also, try and memorize Psalm 1, Psalm 23, and Psalm 91.

If I may be of any help, feel free to contact me by e-mail or Facebook. [/expander_maker]


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